I'm not sure what it is about these late nights that have been keeping me up. Nothing from my past is haunting me if that's what any of you guys were thinking, rather I think my head is filled up with worries and I am constantly finding myself wanting to escape some of the realities in my life. Not going into too much detail, I'm not sure if it's normal for me to feel as normal and happy as I do. There's a lot of pain and suffering in this world and around me, yet it's so difficult for me to find that compassion. That's one of the many things that I lean on God for. I pray each day for compassion and understanding -- a huge aspect of my life that needs to grow.
It's already May, which marks the month of my amazing friend Brian's memorial. Thinking back to a year ago, everyone including myself had no idea what was to happen in the month of May. I think about Brian a lot, I think about him on every 14th day of the month. I don't think this is something I could ever shake off. I have so much gratitude towards Brian for showing me life through his death. He is an absolutely beautiful being. That's just how he is -- constantly making impressions & impacts everywhere he went to everyone he met. Life is fragile and I've been wasting my time toying with emotions and being selfish.
It's time to get serious.
