Los Angeles Professionals.

After an "eventful" morning of me watching 1.5 hours of television, and slowly getting ready, Thuy, Brian, Kris, Justin, and I ventured off to the city of Los Angeles to do our routine indulging: shopping.

In our normal course of action, we headed to Melrose first.
Hitting the typical stores and leaving unsuccessfully.



Next we took a short drive to Fairfax Avenue, where we made short stops to stores like The Hundreds, Hall of Fame, Supreme, and Huf LA.
Brian, Kris, and Thuy bought matching "Burberry" print Huf hats.

I was motionless most of the time because I was famished and extremely tired.
So thankfully, we went to Chipotle afterwards, and I ordered the largest burrito known to mankind and I barely finished it with the help of Brian.




I'm not going to lie, I had a lot of fun today.


My heart is in LA.

I'm a Sucker.

I have a weakness for Usher and his R&B jams.
and I'm not afraid to say it.

I think it's hilarious how young he looks here, with his burnt orange silk shirt:

Five Pounds Lost.

So I've been sick for the past three days.

Battling one of the three:
1. Food poisoning
2. Extreme indigestion
3. Stomach Flu

I believe I may be battling a severe case of food poisoning.
I had a pre-packaged salad from Trader Joe's on Tuesday evening,
and since than I have not been the business.
I had to call out of work, and I had to miss out of two days of summer school.

I hate this. I've been surviving off of water and Kix Cereal.

Throwing up. Fever. Body aches. No appetite. Unmentionables.


At least I got to see the premiere of America's Best Dance Crew.
And I'm not going to lie.

I voted. for the Boogie Bots.




I can't wait to eat a semi-burnt pizza.
That's my ultimate craving.

Number One Brother.

My brother is one of my bestest friends.
No one understands the difficult things we've been through.

We're tougher than nails.

I remember when my mom used to do a lot of business in Korea, she'd leave quite frequently, and my dad would always be working super late.
So it was always just me and my brother. We walked to school together and walked back together.
We always had our inside jokes, and our daily routines of watching TV and eating junk food before dinner.

And he always had his way of making me cry.
Just by saying one word, or sometimes two.
Like the phrase "Taco Bell."
You see, my mom used to always take Matt and I to Taco Bell after school, so naturally after she left all things reminded me of her, especially Taco Bell.

I love my brother, Matt.
He is one of the strongest people I know.

And you'd be lucky to have him in your life.

Original Thoughts.

There's always a reason why people don't like someone.
There's always a reason. ALWAYS.

You may not understand that reason at first and you'll think, "Oh, this person isn't that bad, I'm going to be nice to them." But just remember that you've been warned.

The way that person would feel:
You would feel out of place, out of the loop.
You would feel like everyone is looking at you.

And usually when that happens, that someone wouldn't want to come around.
Right?

I mean everyone, of course, is super nice and super friendly but deep down inside you know they're all laughing and talking about you.
And you can't help but laugh along...to protect yourself.

But why is it that one would feel wanted by the people that didn't want them most?


It's to feel included. To feel like you have a place to call your own.

It really is a tragedy.
And regardless of how many times it happens and whatever I write about it,
it's going to happen.


And it's going to be an ugly part of life.

Use that as your own. And I'll break you.
Not.

Damn, Jane is Sexy!

It's going to take a lot of work and a lot time for me to achieve my perfect body.
It's all good, I'm patient, and pretty motivated. For goodness sake, it's summer.



Goal: Lose 5-10 lbs. 2 inches all around. And get tan.

I just don't want to lose my good assets.
It's all about sacrifice, right?

The Ideal Day.

Almost Full Detail:
After driving through 50 minutes of traffic, it was nice arriving to a familiar place, Brian's house.

It seemed as though we had the entire day ahead of us, but we both knew that once we were together time was our enemy. A minute becomes a second, an hour becomes a minute, and next thing you know we have to part.

So we wanted to accomplish some of the things that we had been wanting to do:
1. Trying the Tuscani Pasta from Pizza Hut
2. Looking around at The Shoppes in Chino Hills
3. Just relaxing and being lazy

And we did all of the above.
Might I chip in that Tuscani Pasta is one of Life's, not so, little wonders. Mmm.
Delicious. Heart attack, but extremely tasty. Oozing with cheese and flavors.

I bought a pair of black cotton shorts from H&M and we wished to have a lot of things from Active (brian) and from Banana Republic (me).

There was another store there, Jeanomix, couldn't quite figure out the pronunciation, but they had a decent selection of denim.
Which I really enjoyed, and Brian stated, "You would like this store. Simple tops and designer jeans."

What can I say? I'm a sucker for nice things and diamond rings. Haha.

We continued with the finals game, the second to last episode of A Shot at Love with Tila Tequila. And the beginning of America's Best Dance Crew.

And finally the night was topped off with a weekly dose of frozen yogurt from Jogurt.
I love yogurt. It's a known fact.


And I love Brian. Oh, the things he does for me.
So appreciated.


This girl is more than content.

Perfect Portrayal.

I Told Mom.

It's easy for people to say: "I know how you feel."

You don't. Pardon my honesty.
No one person ever feels the same emotion that another person feels.

I don't think I've ever felt this uncomfortable as I do now.
It's not bad, nor good.
Just slightly uncomfortable.

You all met me at a very strange time in my life.
And for that I apologize.

My heart hurts.
My heart aches every single time I hear their tears fall.
How strange is it that when sad tears fall, it almost transforms into acid, and your shell never hurt so much.
And with every wipe and every sigh you feel as though you're getting older.

And here I am, laying in my bed, feeling incredibly small,
and being completely reclusive.
Because all I can really do is just merely imagine the painstaking truth of what he has to live with.

It's not me you should feel sorry for.
This is far from having to do with me.
It's not my story to tell.


23 years old. and counting.

In Recent Conversations.

I've come to realize that no matter how much you depend on people,
no matter how much you care for people, no matter how much of your heart you invest, no matter what decisions you make in life, there is and always will be room for disappointment. On both ends.
Yet, you can't help but try to keep your head up high and your spirit free, because that's exactly how life moves on, and that's exactly how you get through the days.

I'll never say "Everything will be okay."
Nobody knows. Everything might not be okay.
But everything does go on. Good or bad.
Life is about risks, life is about decisions, life is hard.
It's our own intuition that makes for the best solutions to our own problems.

We all strive to be the happiest we could possibly be by surrounding ourselves with friends and fun, but none of that is forever.
Because once you're in your bedroom all alone laying in your haven of a bed looking at the ceiling, you just suddenly realize that you are the only person that can make you happy.
And a heavy weight sits on your heart, and suddenly your bed never felt so big.

And you never felt so small.


It's a wonderful thing we call "life".

playful.com

Q: What color is a burp?
A: BURPLE!

Hahahaha.

Goodnight.

The Summer Fruit.

The pineapple is by far the most under-rated fruit.
Most people will opt for strawberries, cherries, or watermelon being their favorite fruit.

The pineapple is constantly being left out. Never remembered.
I never hear anyone pipe up and say how they can't live without pineapples.



Pineapples are good with so many things.
Pizza.
Cake.
Thai food.
Bread.
With other fruits.
Alone.

Even the canned pineapples are delicious, especially when served chilled.

So next time you go to the grocery store, don't forget to check out the pineapples.

They've been waiting for you.

One of Those Days.

You know how in movies how the characters go on these random adventures to the big city, and just look around and shop.

That's exactly what Brian and I did.
We went to Little Tokyo and went to stores like Riff, Popkiller, and Fish Market.
Afterwards, we drove down to La Brea and went to Buffalo Exchange where we ran into his friend BB and BB's friend Wally, from Orisue.
Hearing that the new HUF store opened, we rushed to Fairfax where Brian bought his glorious new hat.
We ventured to the small street of Rosewood, where we stumbled into The Hundreds store knowing exactly what we wanted.

I braced my hands on the Lakers Colorway Player Hat.
SO cute.
Brian, being the kind gentleman he is, bought me the hat that I've been wanting.
What a sweet boyfriend. Seriously.

I love him. and Adam Bomb.