In Jane's Shoes.

My beginning. My life. My days. My end.

Ten Percent Class.

I always found eating habits to be very interesting.
The way people chew, their knowledge of table edicacy, and just lunch/dinner conversations.

Today I watched a man and his wife eat $115.67 worth of sushi and gourmet dishes.
I've never seen such greed come out of just one person, picking at anything and everything.
If it was edible, it was on his plate, in his mouth, or in his stomach.



After his barely 10 percent tip, he had the audacity to tell the server, "Keep the change." A whopping $10.00. And he even mustered up enough confidence to come up to the hostess stand while his wife was in the bathroom and tell me that I was beautiful. He leaned over, grabbed a couple mints, and glanced at my chest.
SO classy. I almost punched that man.

I need to quit.

MJ for Life.

A tribute to my best friend, Mary Kae.



Our story is a crazy story. So buckle up.

We met when we were around 7 years old at a Korean church in Glendale. We were the best of friends and we even shared a bunk at our yearly VBS (Vacation Bible School).
She was somewhat of a brat, and I was the nice nerd. Inseparable.
So we thought.

Sadly, we were split apart due to my family moving to a different city. We were young, so no phone numbers were exchanged. Time went on, and she was replaced and I was replaced.



In highschool I began to attend Lake Avenue Church in Pasadena where I actually saw her from time to time. But since it had been about 7 years since I had last spoken to her, I kept quiet, and so did she.

Another 2 years went by, and I changed churches yet again. Around 2004 I called Youngnak my home church where I would go every sunday to the highschool worship service. Where AGAIN, I saw Mary. And AGAIN we both didn't say a word to eachother.
Time progressed, and I forgot about her and didn't see her around and vice versa.

Jump to 2005, my boyfriend at the time was taking me to go take my SATs at Arcadia Highschool where he attended. He ran into an old friend and insisted I meet her. I remember his exact words, because I didn't even let him finish: "This is my friend Mary-" and I finished with: "-Kae. Mary Kae. We used to be church BFFs."
We small talked for a couple minutes and reminisced about old times. Due to the SATs we went our seperate ways.



Jump to early 2007, I was perusing Facebook when I saw her in the Cal State Northridge Network, which is the college I attended and am currently attending. So I added her not thinking much of it. She messaged me briefly askng how I was and if I wanted to get frozen yogurt with her. I said yes, and of course, I flaked. I ran into her a couple times on campus and exchanged the occasional "hello." It was awkward. It had been YEARS since we hung out.

I thought she was gone out of my life. And I definitely regretted not grabbing yogurt with her. I felt awful. But life went on, and so did work. It was a slow day at work, we were short staffed and my manager Brian was going through several interviews that day. I was fed up seeing person after person coming and leaving. The last interview was up. And low and behold, Mary Kae walks through the doors. Both of our mouths dropped and I exclaimed, "What're you doing here?" Mary simply responded, "I have an interview. What're you doing here?" "I work here!!!"

She was hired the next day, and from then on we've truly been inseparable.



Where there is Mary, there is Jane. And.
Where there is Jane, there is Mary.

We honestly were meant to be best friends forever.

The Mary to my Jane.

Be Gone.

I'm just so tired.

Tired of working.
Tired of studying.
Tired of laughing.
Tired of sleeping.
Tired of crying.
Tired of walking.
Tired of blinking.
Tired of eating.
Tired of talking.
Tired of people like you.


You're unpleasant, but not enough for me to think about.

Get Off My Dick.

Disclaimer: Jane Olivia is happily in a relationship with HER BOYFRIEND.

Seems to me that the deeper and deeper my relationship with Brian gets,
the more and more I have guys creeping up on me.
I know it's not my looks, because I can loose a little weight but I think it's just the fact that I already have a boyfriend.

FUN STATS:
Average Hit-Ons Per Day (the days I work): 8
People That Are Actually Serious & Aggressive: 3

Still-- I can't handle it.

I guess it's true.
People go after things they "can't have."

It's funny at first, but after a while it becomes obnoxious and out of hand.

I love this guy.
He's my sunshine.


So I just wish that those gentlemen would just be respectful.
Respectful to both Brian and me.



Better friends than nothing.

Dreams & Updates.

I can't even begin to tell you how excited I was last night,
Debbie and Doms came into Kabuki to visit me at work. It's always nice seeing super familiar faces.
They make me feel special and remembered.

I've been having strange dreams lately. I would consider them borderline nightmares, but not quite. I think it's just my paranoia at night. For those of you who do not know me, I am afraid more so of supernatural things as opposed to physical fears.
It's childish at times, but I swear there is a ghost in my backhouse, either that or it must be my dog rustling through the bushes.
I definitely hope it's the latter.



Upcoming Excitements:
-Almost done with summer class
-Brian & I are going to Six Flags
-My CSUN classes start soon
-Mary got into USC
-Dunkxchange on the 26th
-Roadtrip to SF for me & Mary
-Rock the Bells (maybe)


Another post will be up.
About: Get Off My Dick.

The Nerve.

It's funny how no matter where I go, when it is, there will always be that one person or various persons that always pick problems with me.

Whether it be their jealousy,
Whether it be their insecurity,
Whether it be their bitterness,

I'm here, and I don't plan on catering to anyone. I spent too much of my life doing that, and I'm jaded. Honestly, it's not worth my time.


We're not 11 years old.
So if you have something to say, say it to my face.


Oh, and try being original.
You probably think this is about you. Get off your high horse.

Cutty Buddy & More.

Hanging out with Brian always holds goodtimes, laughs, and just being myself.


So stylish, baby boy.


Burberry ain't got sh!t on L&O.


Meal of champions.


Call me, so I can make it juicy for you.



Aren't you jealous?

Viva Las Vegas.

My family went on a dope little vacation to our city: Las Vegas.
We induldged in fine dining, an extravagant show, & abused my dad's credit card.
We left happy & full.


My trusty Oakland A's hat.


Meet Mr. and Mrs. Kim.


Are we there yet?


At Wynn.


Rest & relaxation at the Hilton Grand Vacation Club.


Lacoste, Juicy Couture, True Religion, & American Apparel.


Dinner at Wynn.


Le Reve.


I found him.


I love my family.
Happy Summer.

Fuck you, Distance.

I hate how I let distance take over my life.
And I hate how I let it change things.

As Life Moves On.

It's crazy to think that it's already July.
We're more than half way through the year, and I still feel like I'm stuck in January.

For once in my life, I have my life on track.
I'm looking forward to Fall Semester '08.
I have my classes mapped out.



Jane's Classes
1. Math 140 (child development math)
2. Psy 150 (intro to psych)
3. Comp 100 (basics in comp)
4. Geol 102 (study of earth)

Getting my GEs out of the way. By Spring '08 I should definitely be taking my upper division classes.

I've never been so stoked about school.


As far as the past few months that I've struggled with...
Life does continue on. It's sad to say, but it's SO true.
I miss Brian Mammen, I think about him at least once a day. And it still breaks my heart that someone so young and close to me could be gone, as much as I say it's not fair I know he wouldn't want me to think that way. He loves Jesus, and Brian is finally home.

The family stuff is getting worked out. We definitely have a lot of worries as a family.
Nothing financial.
Nothing relational.
Nothing material.
Nothing functional.
Just too personal to discuss.

Today was my brother's 24th birthday and we celebrated in Santa Monica at Houston's Steak House and we pigged out over $179.34 worth of food. Happy and full, we walked around The 3rd Street Promenade and grabbed cups of assorted drinks at Seattle's Best.
The night was perfect.








Everything is smooth.
My relationship with Brian is booming. He's been gone for the past couple days, up in NorCal, and I've missed him to bits.
We have a fun day planned out for tomorrow. Pearl hunting at Redondo Beach with my friend and my cousins. So that should definitely be exciting.


Love life. Love God. Love eachother.
Stay fly.



P.S. My dad might buy me a Lexus IS 250 fully loaded before I graduate, babbbbyyyy. Crossing my fingers.

Personal Life Saver.

It's incredible how just one person could make such a difference in a person's life.
It's almost as if they're heaven sent.

Example: Brian Kim



Who knew that 2008 would bring such good times, rich conversations, and countless laughs to my plate.
I may have had my rough obstacles, but Brian was next to me the entire time, never letting go of my hand.

This past week has been an eye-opener and has made me realize that I love Brian a lot more than I thought.

I don't have much more to say, except that I love him.

Through thick and thin.