Going Bananas For:

1. Derma E: Glycolic Facial Cleanser


2. Coconut Water


3. Red & Pink Lipsticks


4. Clif: Mojo Peanut Butter Pretzel Bar


5. Minimal Makeup


6. Converse Chucks in White


7. Flats


8. Button Ups

9. The Selby (www.theselby.com)


10. 500 Days of Summer

22: Simple Things.

I went on a short trip to San Francisco this summer, and amidst the brief yet memorable experience I realized what journey I needed to be on. There was something just so homely about that city, something that words cannot describe or a picture cannot capture--it was what my heart felt while I was there, something that I took back home with me.

"When one door closes, another opens..." -Alexander Graham

In exactly one month, I turn 22. I will be leaving behind 21 years of my life and venturing off into my 22nd year of life. I'm not sure what to make of 22: hopeful, anxious, excited, uncertain, and indifferent are just a mere preview of the what I have felt about this coming age. 22.

Wishlist of Materialistic Junk:

1. Rebecca Minkoff: Clutch (black) - $300

2. Zara: Basic Twill Blazer (black) - $60

3. Tory Burch: Reva Ballet Flats (black) - $195

4. Madewell 1937: Mesh Bangle - $35

5. My Shaldan Air Freshener: Squash - $3

6. Chanel: Rouge Coco Lipstick in Mademoiselle - $30

7. Clarks Desert Boots (Boys 5) - $70

8. Moleskine: Drawing Notebook (small) - $10

9. Trader Joe's Kettle Corn - $2

10. Bouquet of yellow tulips - $4

Ironically, of all the things I want, listed & not listed, there's only one thing I have my heart set on.

Silver Lining.

This is probably the 100th time I've contemplated deleting my previous posts that pertain to my past relationship and past friendships. As much as I wish for my simple finger to quickly click on the 'delete' button, I know that I'll be kicking myself for deleting a part of who I am, was, and learned from.



I couldn't do it. My past is still there, silently mocking me of the mistakes I made, lies I told, and the person I chose to be. But as seasons changed, my attitude changed, and as my attitude changed, I ultimately changed. You'll never find me contemplating my past, wondering what I could have done, or what I shouldn't have done--but to be truthful, as of late, I've done just that.

It's been over a year of just me. And I could finally say that I am rested.
Amidst all of the chaos and darkness, I found light.

I found me.

Friday Morning Chats.

jessinreallife: It's just SO much info & we honestly don't need the book but it's impossible to keep up during his lectures

janeisdarling: Yeah, that was the same situation for me. I got a C in that class. It sucks too because he doesnt even handout outlines or anything.

janeisdarling: He's all over the place...like Jesus.

jessinreallife: Hahahahahahaha

jessinreallife: What is with you and comparing everyone to Jesus hahahahaha

janeisdarling: Hahaha, I just love Jesus.

No Subject.

In life there will always be people who you instantly click with, or you want to have that magnetic attraction with. I've felt that, experienced that, and even avoided that.



I'll keep this concise. Friends, acquaintances, always put your best and real foot forward--in all relationships & friendships.
In all honesty, relationships whether it be with family, friends, or significant others, are all we have in this dark world we live in.

Just sayin'.

I Love Her.

I think it's safe to say that I have one of the cutest dogs in the world. She's the best and so incredibly smart--she is Bagel.



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Forever Matador.

Coming back to CSUN, while accompanying a friend, I find myself sitting on the second floor of the Oviatt Library, reminiscing back to my first three years of college. I was so mentally young, I was just seventeen. I thought I knew so much about life, what was in store for me in the future, and the career path I would follow. However, everything that was present back in 2006, is completely out of my life or not even an option.



My "knowledge", relationships, and course of study have completely changed. I entered CSUN thinking I knew a lot about life, having a solid boyfriend, and so certain that I wanted to be an elementary school teacher. Now that three years have passed--I don't even go to CSUN anymore, I've been single for a happy one year, and I am now studying to be a Registered Nurse. It's crazy how life throws you curves.

Through all my strives, and all my "I HATE CSUN!" days, I find myself thankful to CSUN for being that one steady place that brings back so many memories with the people I once considered my close friends. In my heart, those people will always be true and dear to me, but as life changes, people change, and as people change--their surroundings change. And I'm okay with that.



CSUN is the essence of my college days, CSUN and the other Matadors I got to share it with.

Olé!

Thickity Thick.

Around a year ago, I was confessing about how I was on track to lose weight. At the time, I had already lost five pounds, but was still having trouble fitting into my size 27 jeans that I had bought on reserve.

Days turned to weeks, weeks turned to months, and a year passed by.
And I am more than proud of myself where I could finally boast and say that I am officially standing at 5'6" and fit into a size 27. Altogether, I have lost 3 inches all around my body. I always thought that I was going to be a thick girl, well--I still am a thick girl, but somehow everything looks a bit more proportioned. I didn't do much to lose the inches, rather I just watched what I ate and took everything into moderation, making big meals into many mini meals. However, I do still find myself indulging in my favorites like the number three meal at McDonald's (name it, and I'll love you forever).



Of course I still have a lot of work to do in order to keep my body healthy. I genuinely miss running at the Rosebowl. Those 3.1 miles were my R&R. I found those moments, those runs, to be the most refreshing and the one thing that helped me get away from it all. I need to do a lot more cardio in order to condition my naturally weak heart back to strength. While doing so, my body too will have an advantage.

I'm definitely a work in progress,
because these dog walks just aren't cutting it.


Image Courtesy: Sartorially Inclined

Death of Me.

The 25th day and 15 more to go.
I want cupcakes, cheeseburgers, and the Pharcyde.



God, it may seem silly to others, but I need you more than ever.


Image Courtesy: Ipso Fattso

FUCK, SHIT, BITCH.

There are no other words to recount the painful encounters of stubbing a toe more perfectly than the three listed above. We all know it's nothing but those words that bleed from our mouths. It's inevitable.

It's an odd thing because cussing is something that I've really wrestled with, and at some point I had tackled it. However, in recent heated events I've found myself turning to these ignorant words that have no absolute value but have the power to make me look foolish and especially unintellectual.



I stubbed my toe the other day on my bed frame, and let me to tell you--the shots of fire that came from my mouth were indescribable. I had no idea that I was even capable of conjuring up such phrases. Honestly though, that painful minute or two of "FUCK, SHIT, BITCH" makes me feel incredibly ignorant, because how could something as big as me, a whole bodied human, be so affected by a little stubbed toe?


Life's obstacles and battles are like little stubbed toes.
It just depends on how we react to those painful moments.



Image Courtesy: Paul Scharff Photography

A Mere Guide.

I don't see the point of resolutions that are made the first day of the year. If you want to do something, or make a drastic change in your life--then DO IT. What's the point of waiting until January 1st to start cleaning up your life or setting goals for yourself?

Goals should be a standard part of life, an everyday factor, not something that you relabel and market as a resolution. However, I am ALL for goal lists or a yearly itinerary. Goals serve as a road map for my year, my life. Of course I might not be able to achieve all the things on my list, but circumstances are taken into account and nonetheless, I exit each year gracefully and entering the new year without grand expectations. Life is a food fight, you never know what's going to be thrown at you.

Resolutions Goals & Tid-Bits:
- Maintain an organized room.
- Taking care of my heart by exercising.
- Talking with God the 1st thing in the AM.
- Cooking at least 1 meal a week for my family.
- Taking my dogs on more walks.
- Go to Disneyland.
- Take a road trip.
- Fall in love with washing the dishes.
- Saving 1/3 of my paychecks.
- Get back in touch with old friends.
- Refrain from using curse words.
- Go to Rock the Bells.
- Attend as many Dodger games possible.
- Go to a freaking Laker game.
- Utilize my new ability to ride a bicycle.
- Putting my friends before myself.
- To not be a selective passive person.
- Step forward on my path to nursing.
- Live my freaking life.

Clean Slate 2010.

I was very fortunate to ring in the New Year with two of my closest friends and spending the first day of the year with my entire loving family. 2010 is already looking good.


Love.


3, 2, 1...YAYAYAYAYAYAY!

2010 is all about starting new and loving my gems, my family & friends.
It's definitely going to be a good one.