I Loathe You, Twenty.

If I could have it my way I would stay nineteen years old for the next five years.

A part of me is anxious to enter my twenties. I am curious as to how my life will change the next couple years and how I will grow in relationships with family, friends, and him.

On the other hand, nineteen is the best. HANDS DOWN.
As a ninteen year old you can demand the respect that an adult deserves,
but not too much can be expected of you since you still are a teen.
I have no complaints about being nineteen, some of the best things happened while I was nineteen.
Why would I want to forget such a wonderful time in my life, such a wonderful age.

So as the days come rushing by, I wake up everyday thinking about my twentieth birthday and what my life as a twenty year old will consist of, what it will be like, who I will meet, what I will do, what I will learn, and who I will become.


This is simply my prime.
I dread October 4th, 2008.

Life is a Battlefield.

With age comes responsibility.
The past few months I have been overwhelmed with concerns and stresses. Nothing light, just all things heavy.

How come no one ever told me that life was going to be so difficult?
It's ironic because I used to be the one telling people to cheer up and I would be the first to say, "Everything will be okay."
Honestly, who am I to say that? Everything might not be okay, and to be truthful, lately all aspects of my life have been everything but okay.
It's taken a toll on my body, on my mind, and especially on my heart.

I feel like I've withered and become this ugly flower that no one wants to look at.
I've become this slothful person that permeates nothing but negative vibes and the rotting smell of "trash talk."

I am ugly. My soul has rotted. My mind has died. My heart is vacant.

Do I regret any of the things I have said or the things that have happened in my life?
No, none of it.

I am who I am.
Take me or leave me.


It's just a phase.

Let's Play Dirty.

I've been telling myself lately that it's all in my head that I was just overthinking things.

But in the past couple weeks, without these thoughts consuming the cluttered halls of my mind, I've definitely come to realize that I plainly don't like you. This, darling, is definitely not a heart issue. Sorry to be frank, but you're not worth it.

Is it something that you've done? Doubt it.
Is it something that you said? Hardly.
Is it something that someone told me? Nope.
Is it something that I'm jealous about? Never.
Is it simply YOU? Exactly.

Don't take it personal. Correction: Take it very personal.

And I'm 100% sure you're my only avid blog reader.
Somewhat flattered, somewhat disgusted.


Do ALL of us a favor and be gone.
Thank you. Toodles.


Copy that, baby. :]

Hole in the Wall.

Pete's Blue Chip is definitely one my favorite eateries.
Delicious home style burgers and crispy chicken tenders that make your mouth melt. Each combo is displayed with delicious french fries that come with this speckled seasoning that is just the perfect balance for those fried potatos, and that's a lot coming from me since I am a french fry connoisseur. I breathe french fries. The ultimate best friend to french fries is ranch.
And let me tell you, their ranch is ranch like no other, perfect seasoning and just the right consistency.
Pete's Blue Chip has been in business for over 25 years now and still maintains homestyle fastfood that won't put a dent in your wallet. Each combo is under $6. But it is cash only, so just a fair warning. Enjoy and eat well.


1701 Colorado Blvd. Los Angeles, CA 90041 (Eagle Rock)

Be there or be square.

Just Call Me...

I want a super badass nickname. Something that sounds gnarly, yet pleasant.
You see, I've grown up my entire life without nicknames, except the occasional "Janie" or "Janega."
But I've always wanted more than that.

So you may ask, "Jane, what nickname is it that you desire?"
My answer is simple, "Diamond."
I'm DEAD serious.

Honestly, it's so smooth and so tough. Just like a diamond. Hahahaha.

I feel ridiculous for sharing this with y'all.
We'll see how it goes.

Love,
Jane
Diamond

In Four Words.

Frustration has kicked in.

Needle in a Haystack.

Come as it may, there are still nice people in this world.
I spoke way to soon when I told myself that there are no longer sane and genuine people in this day and age.
I'm learning to bite my tongue.

Today I had a pleasant experience at CSUN's USU Computer Lab.
I was minding my own business and typing out my Geography 101 homework when all of a sudden I was having some trouble printing out my document. After fidgeting around for 7 minutes and of course the occasional heavy sigh, a kind gentleman sporting a "Fucking Classy" t-shirt, sitting next to me tried to help me. Thought that was funny. Might I add, that his stature was a bit hunched screaming "I play WOW till 5 in the morning."
Very nostalgic, not that I play WOW.
But the nerd in me related to him, and it really took me back to the days where I wore glasses and didn't care whether I was wearing mascara or not.
Back to the point, we both flustered around the printer trying to figure out why our papers were not printing, when honestly it was a simple click of an "OK" button.

Frustrated as I was, breathing heavily I staggered between 2 or 3 seats, when he kindly obliged to check on my paper for me. And so he did, and so he grabbed both of our papers. Nothing more, and nothing less.

I kindly said "thank you," and he said the common "your welcome."
And now we both sit here elbow to elbow with all of the other studious students with the exception of those who are browing their Myspaces and Facebooks, ha.

It's a funny world we live in.
Kind is the new "ass."

Dry Eyes vs. Big Belly.

Two prominent things I've realized today:
1. I do not like eletrical fans consistently blowing in my face.
2. I eat like a man.



The explanation for No.1 is very simple. When fans are constantly parading all over my face, my eyes tend to become dry, which is not very comfortable for a person who wears contacts. And to top that off, it becomes hard to breath. No thank you.

No.2 has always been apparent. It's not the portion of what I eat that compares to a man, it's just the appetite I have. My appetite is just so vibrant. I crave all sorts of things. I always seem to order waaaay more than I can handle.
For example, tonight at the Foo-Foo Tei Noodle House all the guys ordered simple rice bowls or ramen soup, but I was a different story. After flip-flopping for over 10 minutes between a regular katsu curry and a katsu curry plus an omelette rice, I settled for the latter.
And let me tell you, it was worth all of the calories. Of course I didn't finish the plate, I never do. I always eat kid sized portions, but whatever. As long as I'm happy and full, that's all that matters.

Side note: Brian always has this magical way of making me feel like I'm the only person in the room. Sigh, even after almost 7 months, he stills thrills me. <3

So in conclusion, I eat like a man that hates fans but loves my BF.
KBYE.

Mapquest?

I've been doing anything and everything to avoid my Geography 102 Lab homework.
I need to finsh 3 lab assignments which consist of over 45 questions each, which consist of 2 sub-questions per question.
Fascinating, somewhat. Fun, not at all. Why couldn't we just use Yahoo! Maps?

I don't even have all of the materials I need.
Apparently for some of my labs I need:
-A globe
-Wax Paper
-Stereoscope
-Small rock
-Meterstick
-Hand lens
WTF?!

I have until tomorrow to complete all of the assignments, I'll figure something out.
Until then, I want to make a brief birthday wishlist. I know I won't be getting the majority of these, but it's always nice to wish, right? I know I'm guaranteed at least one of the things on my wishlist, thanks to my parents.
When is my birthday you ask? October 4th, so you guys still have plenty of time to save up money. HAHA I'm totally joking, kinda. :]


Canon Rebel Xsi 12mp - $690.00 DONE!


North Face Backpack - $49.50


Blackberry Hardcase - $29.95


Stapleford Buffalo Shirt - $44.00


Black Macbook -$1,499.00


Louis Vuitton Noe Bag - $1,060.00


Choke Book - $14.95


Hello Kitty Blindbox - $8.00 each


Burberry Scarf - $295


Lexus IS f (granite mica)- $56,010

Hey, a girl can wish, right?

Nothing is expected. It's all for fun.
Ok, ok, back to being studious.


Love school. Love knowlegdge.

Recycle.

"Any intelligent fool can make things bigger, more complex, and more violent. It just takes a touch of genius- and a lot of courage- to move in the opposite direction."

-E. F. Schumacher

(thank you LOUD& Obnoxious for the quote and for the idea.)

MB Fashion Week.

Mercedes Benz Fashion week in New York has happened, folks.

And B. Michael brings in some exciting designs, leaning towards the tailored look with classic cuts, and retro shapes for his Spring 2009 line.
He is definitely bringing back the 90s, but also distinctively bringing in his own element of style.


Orange?


I love the 90s.


This screams Audrey Hepburn, I love it.


Not your average "Little Black Dress."


I'm excited about the new seasons to come.
I'm also looking forward to checking out Erin Fetherston's Spring 2009 Collection, which was also premiered at the highly publicized New York Fashion Week.

More to come.
Love couture.

Sept 3rd is Special.

On September 3rd, Brian and I shared our 6 month anniversary.
It's cute, I know.
Our relationship is wonderful for so many reasons, but one of the main reasons has got to be that we're constantly keeping eachother on our toes.
Since day one we've both been mesmerized by eachother.
I've been captivated since day one.

We weren't able to celebrate our 6 months on the actual day, so instead yesterday Brian and I rendevouzed around Los Angeles.



He had a wonderful date planned out and everything. Truly adorable.
Brian took me to the Getty where we watched the gorgeous sunset drifting lower and lower behind the magical garden and overwhelming structure. It was breathtaking.







Afterwards we headed to The Grove where we shared a wonderful time at The Cheesecake Factory where we dined on The Famous Meatloaf and the Double Bacon Cheeseburger. Let me tell you, Cheesecake never ceases on letting me down with portions.
I thought my man could handle any sort of portion, but that burger beat his ass! Which is all good, because it proved to me that he IS in fact human. Haha.



I can't even begin to tell you how magical everything was yesterday.
Everyday with him is something new, something so perfect.

Who knew that two people could be SO compatible.
Do I love him? More than my mediocre words could EVER express.



This is something special.

Teaser.

I've always tried to keep the romantic aspect of my life out my blogs,
but Brian makes me so ridiculously happy I just want the entire world to know.

Tonight I will be posting The Brian & Jane Date Out post.
It was in celebrating our 6th Month Anniversary.

I'm not too big on anniversaries, but I do believe that the half year point and the continual year point are always more than significant.




Later. <3

Lots of Wisdom.

I went in for my routine teeth cleaning. I go on average every three months. You know? Got to keep the pearls clean and shining. And bad breath is gross, so I advise everyone to floss daily and go to your teeth cleaning ASAP.

Anyways, that's besides the point. My hygenist points out that my two upper wisdom teeth are poking through and causing movement. And if I don't act quickly I'd have to get braces again.

No thank you. Instead next week I will be having a lovely time in the dentist's chair getting my chompers fixed.

Let's all say this together:
Jane is having the best week EVER.


Not.